So in an hour I will travel to Evanston to attend a funeral. We have all been through this process before, whether for a friend, relative, co-worker, friend of a friend..you get the picture. In 2006 in the time span of just 2 1/2 months I lost my paternal grandmother, my maternal uncle and my paternal grandmother as well as experiencing another type of loss through the miscarriage of my first pregnancy. While each of those deaths were very different in regards to being expected or unexpected they were still tough. I still remember that time vividly...the phone calls, the raw emotions, the questions to God, the attempt to feel grateful that your loved ones are "now in a better place".
I will be attending the funeral of my supervisor's son who was only 36 years old and has two very young daughters, ages 2 and 6. Even though I never met him, I can guarantee you I will be crying and full of emotion today. Maybe it's because I can't imagine my 3 year and 8 month old being fatherless, maybe I can relate to my supervisor's position in losing a child, or maybe it's because I can relate to my supervisor's wife in losing her son and then also the mother of those two little girls losing her partner for life after only being married for a few years. Whatever the reason, it will be emotional. It's just NOT supposed to happen this way. A parent should not lose a child. His daughters should have had the privilege of having their daddy take care of them and hold their hand through this walk called life. A wife should not have to lose her soulmate and partner after such a short period of time. It's just not fair.
I know that "everything happens for a reason". I know that "over time things will get better". I know that "the memory of their father will live on". I know that "good things will come out of this". I know that "he is in a better place".
But right now I would just like to state for the record, this sucks.
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